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To my younger self….

Dear sweet child,

I know the world feels scary sometimes and it will make you feel chewed up and spit out, as if you were nothing. 

People will reject you, abandon you, betray you. 

You will sometimes feel disappointed, confused by the absurdity of it all, hopeless and heartbroken.

You will sometimes be used and abused and left utterly alone.

It will sometimes feel like there’s a dark, stormy cloud following you around with no light to be found. 

And some days you’ll feel like giving up, laying down your sword and drifting off to the great big beyond. 

But hang on sweet child. Don’t let the darkness swallow you up. 

You have a beautiful light inside you that must be tended to with devotion… honoured, shared.

Let go of all the voices in your head telling you that you are broken, worthless, unloveable… the voices of those who’ve gone before you that never healed themselves and passed their pain onto you, like a torch.

You mustn’t carry it forward. Your work here in Earth School is to put it down… let it go. For it was never yours. 

And remember these words from your older, wiser self:

  • Always listen to your gut, your heart, your spirit team.
  • Don’t worry about making mistakes, looking stupid or being wrong about something. This is how you learn.
  • Never shrink to make others comfortable. Take up space!
  • Never dim your light for those afraid to see. They can buy some fucking sunglasses! 
  • Don’t abandon yourself. ALWAYS have your own back. 
  • Never take the blame or credit for something you didn’t do.
  • Always take responsibility for your actions. Apologise and then do better. 
  • It costs nothing to be kind.
  • It’s better to trust and get hurt, than to live with a closed heart. A closed heart can’t receive love. 
  • People lie and behave badly… and it’s not a reflection of you or your worth. 
  • Rejection is re-direction. Have faith.
  • You are always held and supported by the Universe. Trust it. 
  • You are a unique and precious being. Share your magic with the world.
  • You are made of love and stardust. It took a miracle’s decree to create you. That’s how important you are. 
  • Take care of your energetic diet as much as your physical diet. Both can be healing or toxic. 
  • It’s not being judgemental. It’s being discerning, which is an essential muscle to strengthen.
  • Watch out for fake gurus, coaches and anyone who encourages you to outsource your divinity. Your true guru lives inside you.
  • “No.” is a complete sentence. 
  • If someone thinks you’re too much, let them go find less.
  • Setting boundaries is an act of love. Those who treat it like an act of warfare are precisely why you need boundaries. 
  • It’s better to give from your overflow than your overwhelm. Take good care of yourself.
  • Self care is not selfish. Don’t let anyone convince you it is. 
  • Your soul tribe will get you, so don’t waste your time convincing any one of your worth.
  • And in the words of Dr. Seuss (allegedly): “Those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don’t matter.” You never need to hustle for love. 

Much love from your future self. 😘💖✨

I Wonder

i wonder if you dream of me

feel me dancing around your consciousness

i wonder if you reach for me in your sleep

do you feel the emptiness

when you wake

i wonder if the thought of me

brightens your day

or does it make the space between us

feel like an ocean

i wonder if you long to feel me

in your arms

in your bed

on the tip of your tongue

i wonder if your heart is open enough

to hold all of me

or is your armour too strong

i wonder if you can remain

in the tears

the fears

and consuming passion

i wonder if the intensity of love

strengthens you

or leaves you overwhelmed

i wonder if you will ever let me in

make space for me

in your heart

or will i always remain

just outside your door

i wonder if you can meet me

in the place of wonder

are you curious about me

about us

of what we could be

i wonder if you yearn to know the why of me

to learn what makes me swoon

what elicits my craving of you

i wonder if i dreamt you up

and you are not really here

just a fantasy

of what could have been

i wonder if i can bring you

to the depths of me

or will you always be

just outside my reach 

i wonder if you will draw me closer

deeper

show me your desire

or keep me hanging

i wonder how long i can chase the shadow of you

before i face the truth

if you won’t let me touch you

i wonder if you will finally

let me go