“Exhaustion is not a status symbol. Crazy-busy is a great armor… it’s a great way for numbing. What a lot of us do is that we stay so busy, and so out in front of our life, that the truth of how we’re feeling and what we really need can’t catch up with us.” ~ Brene Brown ~
The realisation that I suffer from Busy Syndrome was a shock to me. When I read Brene Brown’s observation that we, in our society, see exhaustion as a status symbol, I immediately recognised that I am always talking about how crazy busy I am with an air of pride. I’m actually bragging about being much too busy and, therefore, important. Yikes!
This explains why I haven’t written a blog in so many weeks. Once again, I have demoted my writing to “just a silly hobby.” I have been actively disengaging with my gift of observation… staying distracted. The question is… why? If Brene is right and I’m staying busy in an attempt to numb and avoid my feelings, what, exactly, am I hiding from?
After some reflection, I’ve realised it is the feeling of insecurity. I have let the doubt demons come in and throw a party in my head. You know the scene… entertaining the thoughts that tell you you’re not good enough, smart enough or that you have nothing vital to say. Who do I think I am and what do I have to offer?
The antidote to this, for me, has always been to just show up and do it anyway. No matter what my fear says, DO IT ANYWAY! So, here I am… showing up and writing this blog.
I know from vast experience that this is the most effective way of shutting down the doubting demon party and moving forward.
I would love to hear what your antidotes are for overcoming doubt and insecurity. Please leave your comments below…..