who am i

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who am i

when i’m not hustling for worth

not performing for love

***

who am i

when i’m all alone

no one to see me in free fall

***

who am i

without you

speaks more than a thousand i love yous

***

who am i

an existential crisis 

beneath the armour

and storyline

***

who am i 

without your version

telling me what part to play

authenticity replaced by fear

***

who am i

a dream

a mirage

or divine creation

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who am i

when my needs are met

when my heart is grateful

and my mind at ease

***

who am i 

when rejected

neglected

unmet & unseen

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who am i 

under all the labels

the opinions of others

raw and vulnerable 

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i am brave

even when scared

fear is a call to courage

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i am honourable

even when betrayed

my integrity never falters

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i am kind

even when faced with cruelty

i see the pain underneath

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i am generous 

even after being used

i give without strings

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i am honest 

even when lied to

never having to look over my shoulder

the truth is easier to remember

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i am hopeful 

even in heartbreak 

love is always the right choice

***

i am forgiving

even when let down

we all show up the best we can

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i am grateful

even when disappointed

trusting in divine grace 

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i am at peace

even when surrounded by turmoil

anchored in my be-ing

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i am strong

even when i feel defeated

showing up when it’s hard

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i am free

even when i feel trapped

the cage is only in my mind

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i am light

even when fumbling in the dark

inextinguishable eternally

***

i am your heart 

your mirror 

your challenge

and your beloved

together we are…

forever

If they wanted to…they would.

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Oof! This lands hard

But… but… but…

Maybe they’re scared

Maybe they’re busy

Maybe they’re overwhelmed with big feelings

Maybe they’re just not that into you

Maybe you’ve been kidding yourself

Maybe you mistook emotional unavailability for confidence and mystery

The dopamine hit your nervous system is wired for

Maybe you settled for close enough

Because the loneliness felt bitter

Maybe you hoped they’d finally show up

Unarmored, vulnerable

If you just waited longer

Gave more

Gave it all

The thrill of the chase

Intoxicating 

Familiar

A fine distraction from the shadow work you’d rather avoid 

A beautiful dream

Unrequited connection

Can true love exist in a one-sided paradox?

The illusion of safety

Shut-down disguised as strength

Evasiveness disguised as busyness

Avoidance disguised as independence

A side option disguised as friendship

The triangulation you never agreed to

The exit strategy you ignored

Just a figment of your imagination 

The feelings you swallowed because you learned not to trust them

Your overthinking mind and oversensitive heart Wounded by indifference

And a careless hand

Withdrawal and armouring

The only safe harbour

Once again moored in heartbreak 

Christening her Se faire avoir

The real tragedy is hope

Designed to keep you hooked 

The promise of love

Dispensed sporadically

In meagre portions

Inspires craving

But never satiates

A mirage of water

Only to find it’s sand

You drink it anyway

Because you don’t recognise the difference

A deep thirst quenched

By the illusion of love

Such a silly child 

With the broken heart behind a beautiful smile

And a brave spirit

Love is all around you

Unconditionally

Infinitely

Abundantly

You need never hustle for it

For it is your birthright

You only need to let down your armour 

And let it flow through you

You are safe

You are loved

You are supported 

By a force much bigger than dreamt of in your imagination

It resides within you

Untouchable by those who wish to diminish it

You are your own true love

Always and forever ❤️

I Wonder

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i wonder if you dream of me

feel me dancing around your consciousness

i wonder if you reach for me in your sleep

do you feel the emptiness

when you wake

i wonder if the thought of me

brightens your day

or does it make the space between us

feel like an ocean

i wonder if you long to feel me

in your arms

in your bed

on the tip of your tongue

i wonder if your heart is open enough

to hold all of me

or is your armour too strong

i wonder if you can remain

in the tears

the fears

and consuming passion

i wonder if the intensity of love

strengthens you

or leaves you overwhelmed

i wonder if you will ever let me in

make space for me

in your heart

or will i always remain

just outside your door

i wonder if you can meet me

in the place of wonder

are you curious about me

about us

of what we could be

i wonder if you yearn to know the why of me

to learn what makes me swoon

what elicits my craving of you

i wonder if i dreamt you up

and you are not really here

just a fantasy

of what could have been

i wonder if i can bring you

to the depths of me

or will you always be

just outside my reach 

i wonder if you will draw me closer

deeper

show me your desire

or keep me hanging

i wonder how long i can chase the shadow of you

before i face the truth

if you won’t let me touch you

i wonder if you will finally

let me go

New Moon Ruminations 🌚 

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there is a tenderness in my heart 

that feels like it’s breaking

***

breaking apart or breaking open

feels like the former

not the latter

my tears a baptism

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my life is a blessing

this sadness feels like ingratitude

shame and surrender

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i think too much

this i know for sure

i feel too much

a gift and a curse

***

craving and distrusting love

concurrently

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enjoying solitude

longing for companionship

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loving my sanctuary

wishing to find my home

in another’s heart

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yearning for the intimacy

that only comes with navigating conflict

facing life’s myriad challenges together

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my nervous system is wired for betrayal

and often forgets how to breathe

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no one to save me from myself

i am my own champion 

tired of holding back the storm

already proven my strength 

***

will i find a soft landing in another

finally rest in the sanctity of union

to hold sacred

each other’s hearts

***

confusion feels like plunder

indifference like rejection

am i too fragile for this game

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retreat feels safer

the armour battle-worn 

too heavy to carry

too edgy to put it down

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raw

weary

i still believe in love

despite it all

***

hope springs eternal

and anticipation stirs within me

is my person still coming 

or already here

Is it you?

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Art: “Leaning Lovers” by Julia Watkins

i dreamt of you

you came gently

yet with force

*

you disarmed me

undressed me

held me naked and raw

*

you caught me

as i tried to run

reminding me

that i was safe

*

your strength

your passion

your laugh

intoxicate me

*

you hold me tight

whispering love in my ear

playing melodies with my heart

i sing out for you

*

time and distance our enemy

a great loss on the horizon

destiny laughs at my fears

are you mine to keep

*

am i brave enough

to stand still in the magic

as it reveals our future

*

i am yours for the taking

will you claim me

or drift away in a dream

*

a great love awaits me

this i know for sure

i feel you in the ethers

*

is it you

finally you 

forever you

Anticipation

Inspiration

my breath catches

in remembrance of

your touch

your kiss

your body wrapped around mine

*

my heart races

every time I picture you

staring down at me

lustfully

profoundly

eyes filled with hunger 

and something else

i can’t quite name

*

my mind dizzy

with anticipation

of what awaits us

as we reunite

to love each other

once again

*

my body vibrates

with such pleasure

as I imagine you

coming for me

in divine communion 

*

lead me home

trusting you

to hold us sacred

protecting this love

with fierce devotion

*

are you ready

to claim me

are you the great love

i have waited eons for

or just a fantasy

*

i long for adventure

and peace

deep passion

and reverence

to feel safe in your arms

hold me close

lovers until the end

*

till we meet again, my love…

Feel Into Me

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can you feel me

dancing around the edges of your consciousness

drawing you into my portal

*

pulsating

vibrating 

dissolve into me

*

no form

no shadow

no past

only love

*

open to me

let me swim in your waters

deep inside you

drowning in your essence

*

are you ready to catch me

pull me into you

breathe me in

i am your oxygen 

*

feel into me

waking you up

drawing you out

breaking you open

*

are you ready

to receive all of me

unbound by logic

free of fear and restraints

*

i am a force

a powerful wave

consuming you

as you surf through me

*

hold onto me

with steady hands

and fierce devotion

*

protect my heart

through intense storms

and blissful sunshine

*

feel into me

i am yours

if you dare

take me all the way

to forever

The Wanting

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Art: “Desire” by Peter Lik

i want to awaken your wolf instincts

that lie just beneath the surface

of your gentlemanly ways

*

i want you to cherish me by day

and ravish me by night

*

i want to stoke the fire inside you

as you burn through me

*

i want to calm your mind

and worship your body

quench your thirst 

and satisfy your hunger 

*

i want to love you

unyieldingly

voraciously

intentionally

make you wild

and reckless

*

i want to be your peace

your muse

and obsession

*

i want to invoke your savage

release your lust

untamed by desire

surrender fully

*

tether me

bound by truth

and passion

that breaks me open

*

you are my treasure

and torment

attached by craving

liberated by devotion 

*

i want you

to wrap me in your strength

stand beside me

unflinchingly

enchantingly 

protectively 

*

love is fierce and fragile

steady and fleeting

a dream and a promise

that made the wait worth it

*

are you finally here?

THE SACRED FEMININE

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i am ready

to enter my soft era

receiving you

vulnerably

trusting you

to keep my heart safe

*

i’ve already proven

i can ride any storm

i am strong

and independent

highly capable

of holding up the world

but i don’t want to anymore

 *

i am calling in

the divine masculine

to wrap me up

in strong arms

and stronger spirit

*

i want to curl up into you

and merge our energies

my sacred feminine

breaking you open

surrendering

to sensuality 

*

to be held sacred

revered

cherished 

come worship at my altar

*

your heart is mine

no need for armour

the old stories 

and past lovers

have led us here

to each other

at last 

*

lead me 

into the wild

through shadow

and light

your muse

and inspiration

my shield and guide

*

a passion so deep

leaving us breathless

heartbeats align

loving you feels reckless

*

strong apart

indestructible together

let us not know 

another moment

without each other

*

entangled and sovereign

devoted and free

delicious obsession

distracting me

*

images of you

dance playfully in my consciousness

dreams of sunlit beaches

and sexy adventures

await us

*

taking hit after hit

and calling it resilience 

is a closing chapter

the struggle is over

*

a new story of peace

and adoration

stories of heartbreak

told no more

*

envelop me in rapture

protecting me

and us

from the savagery 

of the world

outside our bubble of bliss

*

hold on tight 

my love

the dream has finally caught up with us

sweeping us away 

to our forever

INTO THE FIRE

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~Art by Pieer Luigi Bertig
“Heart (heart on fire)” 2024

my heart ablaze 

you are both fire

and elixir

*

steadying me

when i’m spinning

holding tight

as i surrender 

leading me 

back to you

*

desire grows stronger 

as your lips

wrap around each word

and stirs my devotion 

your consistent presence

feels like a potion

 *

eyes misty with fear

a cautious heart

peeling back the layers

revealing my scars

you feel like safety 

*

such risk in trust

intrepid and free

captivated by you

a free fall into eternity

*

love without cruelty

love as sanctuary

love that soothes and burns

synchronously

*

time is fleeting

and furiously fast

stand still with me

blissful pleasure and peace

you feel like home

*

i stand before you

in raw naked truth

are you ready to catch me

in infinite embrace

*

aspirations of great love

that nourishes

without consuming

that inspires

without capture

that devours

and empowers

without limits

*

claim me

voraciously

unflinchingly

reverently

*

are you the one

or just a delicious dream

i hope to never awaken from