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To my younger self….

Dear sweet child,

I know the world feels scary sometimes and it will make you feel chewed up and spit out, as if you were nothing. 

People will reject you, abandon you, betray you. 

You will sometimes feel disappointed, confused by the absurdity of it all, hopeless and heartbroken.

You will sometimes be used and abused and left utterly alone.

It will sometimes feel like there’s a dark, stormy cloud following you around with no light to be found. 

And some days you’ll feel like giving up, laying down your sword and drifting off to the great big beyond. 

But hang on sweet child. Don’t let the darkness swallow you up. 

You have a beautiful light inside you that must be tended to with devotion… honoured, shared.

Let go of all the voices in your head telling you that you are broken, worthless, unloveable… the voices of those who’ve gone before you that never healed themselves and passed their pain onto you, like a torch.

You mustn’t carry it forward. Your work here in Earth School is to put it down… let it go. For it was never yours. 

And remember these words from your older, wiser self:

  • Always listen to your gut, your heart, your spirit team.
  • Don’t worry about making mistakes, looking stupid or being wrong about something. This is how you learn.
  • Never shrink to make others comfortable. Take up space!
  • Never dim your light for those afraid to see. They can buy some fucking sunglasses! 
  • Don’t abandon yourself. ALWAYS have your own back. 
  • Never take the blame or credit for something you didn’t do.
  • Always take responsibility for your actions. Apologise and then do better. 
  • It costs nothing to be kind.
  • It’s better to trust and get hurt, than to live with a closed heart. A closed heart can’t receive love. 
  • People lie and behave badly… and it’s not a reflection of you or your worth. 
  • Rejection is re-direction. Have faith.
  • You are always held and supported by the Universe. Trust it. 
  • You are a unique and precious being. Share your magic with the world.
  • You are made of love and stardust. It took a miracle’s decree to create you. That’s how important you are. 
  • Take care of your energetic diet as much as your physical diet. Both can be healing or toxic. 
  • It’s not being judgemental. It’s being discerning, which is an essential muscle to strengthen.
  • Watch out for fake gurus, coaches and anyone who encourages you to outsource your divinity. Your true guru lives inside you.
  • “No.” is a complete sentence. 
  • If someone thinks you’re too much, let them go find less.
  • Setting boundaries is an act of love. Those who treat it like an act of warfare are precisely why you need boundaries. 
  • It’s better to give from your overflow than your overwhelm. Take good care of yourself.
  • Self care is not selfish. Don’t let anyone convince you it is. 
  • Your soul tribe will get you, so don’t waste your time convincing any one of your worth.
  • And in the words of Dr. Seuss (allegedly): “Those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don’t matter.” You never need to hustle for love. 

Much love from your future self. 😘💖✨

COMING UNDONE

my heart

shattered in pieces

unrecognisable

broken open

*

the fight of my life

freedom comes at a cost

but my soul is not for sale

*

feeling alone in union

is its own kind of prison

swallowed up in another’s orbit

powerless and afraid

*

breaking free was my salvation

a new world opened

a different kind of terror

*

my broken heart

displayed on the altar

proof I had the courage to love

a testament of faith

*

years of battle

finding my voice 

discovering my worth 

beyond the hustle for validation

*

aging in reverse

freed from the burden of a life

not meant for me

too small to contain my spirit

*

love without strings

love that feels like freedom

love that opens the heart

and quiets the mind

love without cruelty

love that gives more than it takes

*

my ravaged heart

once emptied by thieves

now ravished by love

full

content

whole

*

seeing only bliss 

where once was fear

harmony

where once was chaos

liberation

where once was captivity

*

blessed beyond measure

loved and held sacred

in divinity and pleasure

*

coming undone

rebuilt anew

every cell of my being

activated

by the magic of you. 

*

Come find me

I want to be your obsession, not your distraction

I want to weigh passionately on your mind and in your heart

I want you to crave me, to look for me in your dreams

I want you to be willing to move mountains to get to me

I want you to hold me so tight my breath catches in my throat

I want you to touch, to savour, to devour every inch of my body and soul

I want you to stand bravely by my side and face all kinds of weather…. storms as well as sunshine

I want to feel adored, safe and cherished

I want you to put your hand in mine and journey with me to higher realms

I want you to protect me… protect us, with unyielding devotion

I want you to hold my tears, not cause them

I want you to tenderly and reverently hold my heart, not break it

I want you to tell me the truth, not bludgeon me with it

I want all of you, not just the shiny parts

I want you to show me all your colours and your shadow and love me in mine

I want a sacred union of trust

I want you to join me in the vulnerable place, mine and yours

I want a cosmic love that transcends time and space

I am waiting

Come find me

Being my own Valentine. <3

“In order to love who you are, you cannot hate the experiences that shaped you.” ~Andrea Dykstra

It’s my first Valentine’s Day as a single woman, but I find I’m not as sad as I imagined I would be.

With each painful reminder of betrayal, his and my own, where I abandoned myself, ignored my intuition and my dreams, hid from the truth of my loveless union, I grow stronger in dedication to authenticity.

Accepting a life without true love, honesty, deep connectedness, reverence for truth and loyalty is where I betrayed myself.

Spending so long hiding in another’s shadow, pretending to be happy & fulfilled with all the trimmings of a “successful” life, but feeling misaligned with my values and my Knowing brings me such deep sorrow.

What was I so afraid of that living such a shallow life was a better option?

When did I decide I wasn’t worth being truly loved, protected, supported?

When did I lose the ability to trust?

I don’t believe He took that from me. He only touched an ancient wound, a wound we both share.

My work is clear…. Trust.

Trust in my powerful Knowing…

Trust in the soul contracts I hold with others that were made to ensure my evolution….

Trust that all is going exactly to plan…

Trust that my call to ascension is here, right now.

IT’S GO TIME!

The time for self-doubt, hesitation, not loving and honouring myself is over.

It’s time to embrace my future.

All of the experiences of my life have shown me just how brave and strong I really am.

I am free to design my life exactly as I want… in rainbow glitter and fairy dust.

No more compromise, settling for less than I deserve, agreeing to things I don’t want and that don’t serve my highest good.

No more superficiality, inauthenticity, toxicity…

I get to choose the energy I surround myself with and a life that is aligned with my purpose.

When I release those that weigh me down with projections of their own fear, I have space for my true soul tribe to show up.

To all who have shared my life and brought me to these truths, through both love and betrayal, thank you.

To all who have shown up and loved me through the most painful and scary time of my life, thank you.

To all who remain in my life to share this next exciting chapter, thank you.

To me, for choosing to show up and love myself enough to face my shadow, my fears and open my heart fully, thank you.

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone. I hope you love and spoil yourself today and everyday because you deserve it!

Namaste. ❤