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The Wounding

“Your word travels the entirety of space and reaches my cells which are my stars then goes to yours which are my light.”

~Frida Kahlo

I thought my heart irrevocably broken

That I would never again feel whole

Each shattered piece

Piercing

Bleeding

A hurt so intense

I thought I might die

When you kiss my wound

It stings

The delicious pain

Of being brought back to life

Will I ever trust again?

Betraying myself

Trying to love someone too broken to receive it

Am I too broken now to receive your love?

I sprinkled my wounds

With fairy dust and sparkles

Pretended to be fierce

Beyond reach

To those who sought to harm me

The same who once claimed to love me

Still…

The arrow got through

My armour disguised as enlightenment

True love doesn’t require an armouring

Does it?

But what do I know of true love…

I only know betrayal

Lies and deceit

Frost bite

Disguised as affection

Abandonment

Disguised as support

Bullying

Disguised as protection

And then you come along

Tending to all my wounds

With such delicate care and devotion

So gentle and reverent

You hold my heart

Tenderly

I push you away

Again and again

Yet you remain steadfast

And dedicated

Courageous and strong

Afraid of losing you

I ran away

Before another wounding

Another devastating loss

That would surely destroy me this time

We were destined

To find our way back together

To traverse this love

This life

Hand in hand

Healing each other

Along the way

I can shed my heavy armour

Finally

You remind me

Of who I am

Underneath all the wounds

Of my strength

My courage

My capacity for love

You know heartbreak and betrayal

Intimately

Yet you love with such stubborn loyalty

Showing me my heart is safe in your hands

I thought I knew what love was

I had every exact detail written in stone

What a fool I was

Loving and embracing

each other’s and our own perfect imperfections

Trusting each other to hold our vulnerability

A life of

Intense soul shifting passion

Deep belly laughs into the wee hours of dawn

Blissful sleep wrapped in each others arms

Sexy adventures

Sharing our hopes and dreams

Our pain and fears

Growing in truth

Falling deeper in love

Every single day

Challenging each other to

Evolve

Transcend

Release stale versions

Of who we became

After so much wounding

I have finally found my home

In you

In us

And I am here to stay.

Follow your Bliss

“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.”

~Joseph Campbell.

Can you feel bliss knocking at the door of your soul?

You’ll feel it knocking as the sun shines on your face

As the gentle breeze blows across your skin

As you melt into strong arms, hugging you tightly

As you fold into cozy blankets in your soft cloud-like bed on a chilly night

As you sit in front of a roaring fire feeling its warm glow

As you stare deeply into the eyes of your beloved

As you feel your heart open wide to all the bliss in the universe

As you stroke the soft fur of your pet

As you sit quietly in meditation

Watching the gorgeous pink sky as the sun rises

And the golden orange radiance as the sun sets

As you gaze in wonder at the starlit sky

And the rising of the orange harvest full moon

Feeling your beautiful baby squeeze your finger and smile for the first time

The feeling of your baby sleeping peacefully on your chest

Listening to the sound of waves crashing on the shore

The nourishing feeling of warm soup on a cold Winter’s night

That first flush of infatuation

Then falling madly in love

The joy of deep belly laughs

Of dancing wildly

The peacefulness of laying on the earth amongst the trees

The satiated bliss after an orgasm

The cold, crisp, blue skies in Autumn

And the red, gold and orange leaves before they fall to the ground

The newborn lambs in Spring as they hop around the paddock with pure joy

The delicious slumber after a good cry

The glorious relaxation of a head massage

The sweetness on your tongue after the first bite of your favourite dessert

What brings you bliss?

Gratitude is knocking at the door….

Will you let it in?

Sacred Mirror

“This is a subtle truth. Whatever you love, you are.” ~Rumi

a tapestry of trauma

tiny moments

a cruel word

a rejection

a dismissal

an unmet need

a disrespected boundary

small betrayals

a lack of courage

the tiny puzzle pieces

finally came together

I saw the truth of you

the truth of me

a sacred mirror

I inflicted these traumas on myself

not having my own back

saying yes, when I meant no

rejecting my own needs

disrespecting my own boundaries

dismissing my own dreams

following you

when you didn’t know how to lead

betraying my divine feminine

for your unhealed masculine

we met in our shadows

I choose the light

meeting my sacred mirror

but in healed union

will set our souls ablaze

for when the cosmos aligns

the ecstasy begins

The Abyss

“Sorrow prepares you for joy.
It violently sweeps everything out of your house,
so that new joy can find space to enter.
It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart,
so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place.
It pulls up the rotten roots,
so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow.
Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart,
far better things will take their place.” 
― Rumi

Today I awoke breathless

My heart trying to beat through vice-like grief

Choked by tears

A call to the abyss

A voice asks me why

Why take that next breath

That next step

I know not why

I just know I must

I am lost

Adrift at sea

Rudderless

My heart is broken

But still loves

The loss is immeasurable

Yet there is relief in loss

Once a hostage to bitterness

Betrayal after betrayal

Left me an empty shell

Rage giving way to numbness

Busyness my costume

Hiding my dying spirit

Leaving was no longer a choice

But a necessity

My heart does not choose to beat

It just knows that it must

My body was carried away

And dropped into my deepest shadow

The pull to sink into the abyss was so powerful

So seductive

I could almost taste the relief

But I swam

With a ferocity I scarcely recognised

The heart finds a way to beat

No matter the grief

I must continue to breathe now

To love

As if my life depends on it

Because it does

I will open the dam

And let all the tears fall

I will allow the sea of loss

To flow over me

Through me

Around me

Until I am buoyant

Saturated by all the love that exists

My heart will beat

My lungs will breathe

Whilst I sit with my sadness

Trusting in the process

Of transformation

I am being re-birthed

And it fucking hurts!

Enraptured

Artwork by Jen Shearer

I dare you not to fall in love with me

Will you take that dare

I will conquer your heart in a single moment

You enrapture me at first touch

Getting lost in the intensity of your grasp

Holding me with such reverence

I am mesmerised

By your hypnotic gaze

I long for you after only a moment’s absence

I crave you like an addict

You see all of me

Raw

Naked

Vulnerable

Heartbroken

Rapturous

Silly

Clumsy

Dancing

Spinning madly

So in love with you

Making me feel safe again

No longer afraid to speak my truth

Take up space

Make some noise

Express my hunger

Expose my shadow

I show you my warrioress

My tenderness

My fear

My weariness

You stand with courage

Consistent

Never flinching

Nor retreating

I don’t scare you

Because your heart is strong,

wide open

Ready to receive my love

The brutal betrayals

Broke my heart wide open

Showing me what love isn’t

The scattered pieces have come together

In a tapestry of divine truth

Trusting you is easy

Your kindness a beacon

I have always loved you

In your arms is like coming home

Your heart my sanctuary

Sexy adventures await us

Fun and belly laughs

Lusty moments

Dreamy quietude

Stepping beyond our comfort zones

Abundant bliss our reward

Living out loud

Strong alone

Indestructible together

Devouring each other under a starry sky

Let me crawl inside you

Forever connected

Spellbound

I am hopelessly captivated by you

The distance no match

For destiny always finds a way

Take my hand, my love

Our future awaits

Because of you…

“The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere.
They’re in each other all along.” ~Rumi

You entered my sunlit dreams

offering your heart

so open and warm

I melted into you

So steady and sure

you held onto me

with a strength that calmed my fear

Your devious charm

seducing me

with belly laughs

and innuendo

Your voice

your moans

the way you sigh my name

lights a fire inside me

Throwing caution to the wind

with eyes and hearts open

allowing our souls to find their way back together

We have loved each other

for eons

reconnecting with so much ease

letting the How unfold

as it is meant to

Our illusion of control

destiny laughs at us

no point in resistance

the stars are aligned

My healing heart

bursting open

ready to receive

the magic of you

I want to hide

drawing into myself

you seek me out

pulling me closer

I am braver

because of you

I am stronger

because of you

you are my sanctuary

You lift me up

hold me tight

blow my wings open

launching me free

Always flying back to you

where I belong

tether me

to your heart

Side by side

we journey together

great adventures await us

growing and glowing

You are my forever

my light

my love

always

Falling in love

falling in love with life again

the rawness of the wounds healing

endless possibilities

laid out before me

a return to love

remembrance of my strength

beauty

trust

no need to hustle for my worth

nothing more to prove

I see clearly now

standing naked in the moonlight

surrounded by electricity

sensuality

a lust for life

my appetite returned

no more starvation

a feast upon me

I am whole

feel my passion

I am yours

but never owned

possess me

but don’t control

I am water

grasping can’t hold me

swim beside me

bathe deep inside

soak me into your consciousness

I will be forever

on your mind

you can’t let me go

I am a part of you now

Dear…..

as I rise

I feel your judgement

quietly resenting my release

free from the shackles

that bound me to a much too small life

wings clipped

by a thousand criticisms,

rejections and betrayals

feather by feather

left crippled and afraid

until one day

with nothing left to lose

all dignity lost

I set myself free

my healing has been long

painful

messy

at times ungrounding

all over the place

up

down

moving between moods

like a toddler

and so what?!

I want to feel

all my fucking feelings

I am not afraid

I am a warrior

built for hurricanes

so spare me your judgement

disguised as concern

of how I’m choosing to heal

don’t you worry about me

check your own damn self

I am free

to laugh

to dance

to make love

to relish every single moment

the deliciously sexy ones

the joyful ones

and even the gloriously,

excruciatingly

painful ones

I am rising like the Phoenix

I will not sit down,

shut up

and behave

like a good girl “should”

I will roam free

roaring as loudly as I want

making all the mistakes

that my newfound freedom allows

risking a broken heart

if that’s what it takes to be fully alive

open hearted

vulnerable

fierce

I will not hide behind what is comfortable

safe

allowed

throwing caution to the wind

logic out the window

I will move with my soul’s longing

I will follow my passion

find my bliss

blaze the trail

take the heat

your need to push me down

make me small

diminish my light

is your own fear

holding you back

my awakening scares you

reminds you of what you’ve lost

hiding behind your rules

your safety net a prison

of your own making

put it down and join me

on this exhilarating rollercoaster

we can never know how strong we are

until we flex our muscles

grab hold of our power

our sovereignty

as free wild women

a road less travelled

but the only path to liberation

join me there

Come find me

I want to be your obsession, not your distraction

I want to weigh passionately on your mind and in your heart

I want you to crave me, to look for me in your dreams

I want you to be willing to move mountains to get to me

I want you to hold me so tight my breath catches in my throat

I want you to touch, to savour, to devour every inch of my body and soul

I want you to stand bravely by my side and face all kinds of weather…. storms as well as sunshine

I want to feel adored, safe and cherished

I want you to put your hand in mine and journey with me to higher realms

I want you to protect me… protect us, with unyielding devotion

I want you to hold my tears, not cause them

I want you to tenderly and reverently hold my heart, not break it

I want you to tell me the truth, not bludgeon me with it

I want all of you, not just the shiny parts

I want you to show me all your colours and your shadow and love me in mine

I want a sacred union of trust

I want you to join me in the vulnerable place, mine and yours

I want a cosmic love that transcends time and space

I am waiting

Come find me

Yearning

Painting: “The Yearning” by Carolyn LeGrand

I feel you in the pit of my stomach

I see you in my dreams

Exploring every inch of my soul

Your touch reverberates inside me

Your energy lingers

Causing more yearning

This connection is strong and inexplicable

I want to feel your hands on me

Come through the door and shake me awake

This dream is divine

The truth shatters the illusion

My yearning for you is just a reflection

I see myself in your pain

Open me

Unwrap me from my slumber

Take me

Ravish me

Then set me free.