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Panther rising

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You move slowly

As you touch, kiss, taste

Each part of me

I breathe in your breath

Like a cat

As I surrender to the sensations

Sensual

Controlled

Calculated

Designed to seize me

A whispering feather

Barely grazing my skin

Teasing me

Then flying away

I move closer as you move away

Toying with me

Bending me

To your craving

Blood fills my sacred space

Pulsing, rising

I am alert

You circle your fingers around me

Aligning our energies

I am being guided

Toward the boundary

A deep yearning

Divine waters flow free

A powerful surge overtakes me

I am the prey

Vulnerable

Being led to my consumption

Your appetite is fierce

But mine is stronger

On hands and knees

I am infused with the Panther

Silky black skin

Saliva dripping from my teeth

A predator’s stare

I long to taste you

I move with feline energy

As I slither across the earth

Crawling toward you

Seducing you

Drawing you close

You are now my prey

I will devour you

But first we play

We circle each other

Desires aligned

Grasping for control

A predator’s instinct

To dominate

I will submit

For a moment

I calculate your next move

And my own

This visceral dance

Makes me dizzy and hungry

You watch me

Never looking away

Meeting and matching my every move

The tension is high

I lose my breath

Sensing my vulnerability

You come for me

I abandon all restraint

I expose my throat

Inviting you to feast

A thick growl rises

As I move with your touch

You bite into me

My juices dripping

You lap up my essence

You take your time

Enjoying my submission

I come for you

While you’re distracted

By my pleasure

I reclaim my position

The control is now mine

You will surrender to me

The agony and the ecstasy

Of the chase

We abandon ourselves to it

We breathe in unison

Watching each other closely

As we rise

Higher and higher

Before falling off the edge

Our souls collide

As we fly into each other

I am a part of you now

I will remain in your dreams

Creating a longing when you think of me

You cannot possess the Panther

She will remind you

When you try

Stroke me

While I purr for you

Hold me

Kiss me

Then release me

The hunt is calling

I await our next feast

Come for me

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Your gaze pierces me somewhere deep inside

The space between us feels like forever

An invitation to draw closer

An accidental graze of your hand against me

My hand traces the air above your leg

Landing for one flirty moment

A pulsing courses through me

Drawing you in

A silent pleading behind my eyes

Come for me

Anticipation wets my mind

I can’t focus on what you’re saying

Only the way your tongue wraps around each word

You pull away

I resist the urge to follow

You need to come for me

I won’t chase you

My breath catches as I wait

My imagination runs wild

You take my hand with authority

And I burst into flames

Intense longing

I need you to take me

To the end of this fantasy

What awaits us

Distracts me

Excites me

Come for me

Take me

To the vulnerable place

Divine, raw union

Passionate kisses

Exploring the taste of each other

You look deep into my eyes

While you ravage me

You pull away

Then return with force

We play at the edge

Dancing into a free fall

Sacred, guttural cries

As we hold on to each other

I am suddenly pulled back to earth

As the food arrives

Did you notice me leave?

Did you feel it all happen

While I sat quietly by your side?

I’m pleading now

Come for me

Awakening

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Electricity flows through my veins

I am awakening

Deep slumber disguised as death

I had forgotten this feeling

Lost to numbness

So much betrayal

The flow can’t reach me in my armour

I am naked now

Raw

The spark has returned

Every piece of me alive

Every touch starts a fire

Every look sends me into fantasy

Every thought of your hands on me

Lights me up deep inside

Talk dirty to me

Tell me your secrets

What do you dream of?

What scares you?

What opens your heart?

What feeds you?

Take your clothes off

Let me kiss your wounds

Stand in the fire with me

Let it devour us

Let’s get swept away

Surrender to the frenzy

Higher and higher

Pierce me with your gaze

Hold me there

Not yet

Wait for me

Divine release

Slow return to dust

Bodies entwined

Emptied

Satiated

Sacred caresses

As we talk, laugh, greet the dawn

Bare souls and bodies

Sweet slumber.

Until we awaken again….

Come find me

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I want to be your obsession, not your distraction

I want to weigh passionately on your mind and in your heart

I want you to crave me, to look for me in your dreams

I want you to be willing to move mountains to get to me

I want you to hold me so tight my breath catches in my throat

I want you to touch, to savour, to devour every inch of my body and soul

I want you to stand bravely by my side and face all kinds of weather…. storms as well as sunshine

I want to feel adored, safe and cherished

I want you to put your hand in mine and journey with me to higher realms

I want you to protect me… protect us, with unyielding devotion

I want you to hold my tears, not cause them

I want you to tenderly and reverently hold my heart, not break it

I want you to tell me the truth, not bludgeon me with it

I want all of you, not just the shiny parts

I want you to show me all your colours and your shadow and love me in mine

I want a sacred union of trust

I want you to join me in the vulnerable place, mine and yours

I want a cosmic love that transcends time and space

I am waiting

Come find me

What if….?

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“What if we choose love… every. single. time?

What would the world look like then?” ~Jana Joy

What if we love as much as we’re capable of loving, even if it falls short of other’s expectations or needs?

What if our insecurities and fears are the cause of our harmful behaviour and has nothing to do with others?

What if we act out just because we are hurting?

What if forgiveness for all the hurt we cause each other is a blessing that will open our hearts to loving ourselves and others more deeply?

What if we are so desperate to prove our worth by “doing” in order to hide from our feelings of worthlessness that we just can’t see another way?

What if being asked to open our hearts and rise is simply out of our capacity right now?

What if what we truly need is something we can find within ourselves and we don’t need to look to others for it?

What if our suffering is so immense, we just need to hide for a bit to feel safe?

What if we simply lack the skills to navigate through our own painful emotions so cannot hold space for others in pain?

What if we stopped judging ourselves and others for how we show up in our pain and just had compassion instead?

What if we acknowledge we are all doing the very best we can when faced with difficult circumstances?

What if we stopped begrudging ourselves and others what little relief we can find in whatever ways we can find it, even if we don’t agree on each other’s methods?

What if the actions of others, their beliefs, opinions and harsh words have nothing to do with us and are merely reflections of their own heart that may broken, closed or healing from trauma?

What if the same is exactly true for us?

What if our fear of starting over is what causes us to behave in hurtful ways?

What if our true value is no longer defined by others?

What if we just gave thanks for the gifts in our lives that are here because of all the pain we’ve faced and overcome?

What if setting ourselves free is our greatest act of self love and inspires others to do the same?

What if we stopped looking backward and started focussing on all the blessings here, right now, and what is on its way to us?

What if we stopped clinging to old habits, to things, to ideas, to people that only weigh us down and prevent our ascension?

What if we placed all of our attention on the incredible life that awaits us when we let go of the storylines that threaten to destroy us?

What if we remember our divine “why” and followed our hearts instead of our minds?

What if we choose love… every. single. time?

What would the world look like then?

Craving

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“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” – Rumi

My mind slips into remembrance of your touch

Your gaze…

Intense

Creating a fierce hunger in me

My heart skips a beat

Electricity flows through my veins

Awakening the sleeping passion within me

Tender embrace

Reverence

Gently holding each other

As we move into vulnerability

There is fear beckoning me

I resist the urge to pull away

Back to the safety of my armour

You stand in your truth with such courage

It calls me back

Opens my heart

No need to define this connection

So raw in its intensity

Just allowing the flow of energy to weave its way back to the ocean

To source

No need to build a dam

To block

To hoard

To interrupt what is destined.

This pull is strong

But I remain fluid

I cannot be held by grasping

I can only be bathed in and then released.

I seep into your heart and leave a piece of me

To remind you

I am here

Pure light

Resonating frequencies

Ease and grace my offering

I see you

I feel you so deep within

I hold you in my dreams

May this journey

Bring us closer to truth

Broken hearts

Healing

Trust

Guiding each other home

Let me hold space for your pain

Transforming my own

I am coming back to life

A spark of divinity

Awakening to love

To connection

To purpose

I am fed

But still hungry

I await our next moment

With baited breath

Stand Tall.

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We all have greatness in us. We just need to get out of our own way.

I am free.

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In Celebration of 28 Years Clean & Sober

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Today I celebrate 28 years clean and sober. I’ll be honest… I sometimes take my sobriety for granted as it’s been my way of life for over half of my life and most days doesn’t seem like much of an accomplishment. But this year I really earned it!!!

I’ve been savagely betrayed by someone who was supposed to be my person.

I’ve walked away from a life I spent the past nearly 24 years building.

I’ve left my gorgeous mansion on the hill and am now renting a tiny cottage on a farm in Nelson; and I left most of my belongings behind so I can travel light.

I won’t lie… I woke up today full of terror and despair. Some days it just feels all too much. The universe has thrown nearly every challenge my way this past year and today I’m feeling exhausted and defeated.

BUT, in other news…. my beautiful daughter is well on her way to recovering her lost joy and is finding her passions and discovering her gifts.

My amazing son is happy, healthy and off to University in Auckland and enjoying his new adult life.

I have my precious fur babies back with me and they have been the antidote to my broken heart as nobody loves as deeply and unconditionally as dogs!

I am surrounded by so much love and support from both my soul whanau and even those I don’t know very well or haven’t really connected with in years. The outpouring of love from people far and wide has given me so much nourishment for my soul and hope for the future.

As sad and scared as I am, I also feel such a deep gratitude for this precious life and for all the blessings of the Universe that continue to carry me through this challenging time.

I’ve been presented with so many exciting opportunities to live my dream life and I KNOW that everything that was holding me back, weighing me down and poisoning my spirit needed to be stripped away so I could fly free toward my destiny.

Words fail to express how much I love and appreciate everyone who has supported me through this painful chapter.

You continually prop me up when I am collapsing, slap me silly when I am wallowing in self pity, tell me the truth when I’m lost in victim consciousness, encourage me when I lose my confidence, embrace me when I can’t stop crying, hold loving space for me when I’m enraged and just need to express it out loud, make me laugh out loud when I’m taking it all way too seriously, and when I feel like giving up, you remind me of my purpose and what I’m here to offer to the world.

So, thank you to everyone who has shown up for me this past year and I vow to honour your love by showing up and doing the work so I can live my greatest life and be that guiding light for others as you’ve been for me.

Namaste. 🙏🏻💖✨🥰🕉

Say YES!

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I say YES to bliss!

I have spent the better part of my life saying no. 

No to following my heart, no to embracing my power, no to holding myself in high regard. I allowed others to treat me in ways that were soul-crushing, humiliating, and wildly disrespectful.

Why? Because I didn’t feel I deserved any better. Underneath my sassy bravado, I was insecure and felt utterly worthless. Naturally, I attracted relationships that confirmed my deepest suspicions about my value, or lack thereof.

After the collapse of my marriage, I found within myself a well of resilience and strength I had forgotten I possessed. With the unimaginable betrayal came deep grief and then a call to courage.

All the benefits of the “work” I’ve done these past 28 years rose to the surface—gently guided me through one trauma after another. I made a huge withdrawal from my wellness account within my heart. 

Along with the loyal and loving support of my soul tribe, I am walking the path to awakening with fierce determination, a touch of grit, and a heaping tablespoon of trust.

I am now ready to say YES to following my dreams and passions; to awakening to true love and deep connection; to trusting my Knowing and being led by my heart.

I will break loose from the shackles of fear that keep me small. I will release the pain of betrayal and fly free toward my destiny.

I am being called to live the expansive life my heart has always longed for. The time for playing small is over. I benefit no one by hiding my gifts.

I am free to stand in my truth and share my offerings without holding back for fear of being “too much.” I embrace my too-muchness and allow my spirit to shine brightly and illuminate the path to awakening. I will no longer dim my light for those afraid to see.

The way forward is clear. I say YES to the Divine encouragement to take risks, be vulnerable, authentic & wild, to receive all the love in the Universe.

Here is a quote I love from Alana Fairchild in the Rumi Oracle:

“Something has to change in your physical world. You are in need of more sustenance, more love, more connection, and more nourishment that touches your body and soul, and brings them into deeper oneness with each other, with life, with love. Dare you open up and allow that love in? The Great Beloved has desired that this be so. Will you heed that holy desire? Will you allow love in? Say yes!

If you find this difficult, now is the time to gently, carefully tend to the walls you once placed between yourself and life – walls of tentativeness, excessive caution, fear of abandonment and betrayal, doubt of your own lovableness, and doubts based on past pain without substance. You are so much greater than these crumbling walls. They are the stuff that is designed for demolition, not devotion and honouring. Can you begin to unpack the bricks you mistakenly believed were essential to your safety and well-being?

You are too vast a sea for that small puddle of thought now. The oceanic world of love is your true home and the sun is beating down upon you. It is too hot to gaze at the ocean longingly from afar, or even stand by its edge. Strip off your layers. Run to the ocean and dive in!”

Namaste 🙏🏻