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Come for me

Your gaze pierces me somewhere deep inside

The space between us feels like forever

An invitation to draw closer

An accidental graze of your hand against me

My hand traces the air above your leg

Landing for one flirty moment

A pulsing courses through me

Drawing you in

A silent pleading behind my eyes

Come for me

Anticipation wets my mind

I can’t focus on what you’re saying

Only the way your tongue wraps around each word

You pull away

I resist the urge to follow

You need to come for me

I won’t chase you

My breath catches as I wait

My imagination runs wild

You take my hand with authority

And I burst into flames

Intense longing

I need you to take me

To the end of this fantasy

What awaits us

Distracts me

Excites me

Come for me

Take me

To the vulnerable place

Divine, raw union

Passionate kisses

Exploring the taste of each other

You look deep into my eyes

While you ravage me

You pull away

Then return with force

We play at the edge

Dancing into a free fall

Sacred, guttural cries

As we hold on to each other

I am suddenly pulled back to earth

As the food arrives

Did you notice me leave?

Did you feel it all happen

While I sat quietly by your side?

I’m pleading now

Come for me

Awakening

Electricity flows through my veins

I am awakening

Deep slumber disguised as death

I had forgotten this feeling

Lost to numbness

So much betrayal

The flow can’t reach me in my armour

I am naked now

Raw

The spark has returned

Every piece of me alive

Every touch starts a fire

Every look sends me into fantasy

Every thought of your hands on me

Lights me up deep inside

Talk dirty to me

Tell me your secrets

What do you dream of?

What scares you?

What opens your heart?

What feeds you?

Take your clothes off

Let me kiss your wounds

Stand in the fire with me

Let it devour us

Let’s get swept away

Surrender to the frenzy

Higher and higher

Pierce me with your gaze

Hold me there

Not yet

Wait for me

Divine release

Slow return to dust

Bodies entwined

Emptied

Satiated

Sacred caresses

As we talk, laugh, greet the dawn

Bare souls and bodies

Sweet slumber.

Until we awaken again….

Come find me

I want to be your obsession, not your distraction

I want to weigh passionately on your mind and in your heart

I want you to crave me, to look for me in your dreams

I want you to be willing to move mountains to get to me

I want you to hold me so tight my breath catches in my throat

I want you to touch, to savour, to devour every inch of my body and soul

I want you to stand bravely by my side and face all kinds of weather…. storms as well as sunshine

I want to feel adored, safe and cherished

I want you to put your hand in mine and journey with me to higher realms

I want you to protect me… protect us, with unyielding devotion

I want you to hold my tears, not cause them

I want you to tenderly and reverently hold my heart, not break it

I want you to tell me the truth, not bludgeon me with it

I want all of you, not just the shiny parts

I want you to show me all your colours and your shadow and love me in mine

I want a sacred union of trust

I want you to join me in the vulnerable place, mine and yours

I want a cosmic love that transcends time and space

I am waiting

Come find me

Yearning

Painting: “The Yearning” by Carolyn LeGrand

I feel you in the pit of my stomach

I see you in my dreams

Exploring every inch of my soul

Your touch reverberates inside me

Your energy lingers

Causing more yearning

This connection is strong and inexplicable

I want to feel your hands on me

Come through the door and shake me awake

This dream is divine

The truth shatters the illusion

My yearning for you is just a reflection

I see myself in your pain

Open me

Unwrap me from my slumber

Take me

Ravish me

Then set me free.

Reclaiming My Laugh

“Laughter connects you with people. It’s almost impossible to maintain any kind of distance or any sense of social hierarchy when you’re just howling with laughter. Laughter is a force for democracy.” ~John Cleese

Yesterday I had a realisation…. I’ve lost my laugh. Or rather, I gave it away.

He hated my laugh… the too-loud witch cackle.

I learned to hate my laugh too.

I spent the past 20 years trying to change my laugh. To make it quieter, less annoying, but in the process, I lost it.

Losing my laugh meant I lost my deep capacity for joy. Suppressing my laugh, holding it in my throat, preventing its escape shut down my ability to communicate love.

How dare he take my laugh. How could I have betrayed myself so savagely as to allow him to have it?

It is in the smallest of moments that pieces of ourselves are stripped away. The little comments, criticisms, the rejections along the way….

One day you wake up and don’t recognise yourself. So many pieces missing.

I didn’t know that this isn’t what love looks like.

True love would never take your laugh.

Of all the betrayals, indignities, and disrespect, this one hurts the most.

Today, I am reclaiming my laugh. I will laugh as loud and as deep as the moment calls for, or for no reason at all.

For anyone who cannot revel in my unfettered joy, who lacks the capacity to experience intense emotions, including bliss, has no place in my life!

I will never again betray myself as to dim my light to enable another’s need to hide in the dark.

I am reclaiming all pieces of my soul that were lost, stolen, given away.

This new chapter will begin with getting to know myself again… the woman I abandoned so many years ago.

And it will include so much laughter, I’ll never need to do a sit-up again!

Namaste.

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