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The Wounding

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“Your word travels the entirety of space and reaches my cells which are my stars then goes to yours which are my light.”

~Frida Kahlo

I thought my heart irrevocably broken

That I would never again feel whole

Each shattered piece

Piercing

Bleeding

A hurt so intense

I thought I might die

When you kiss my wound

It stings

The delicious pain

Of being brought back to life

Will I ever trust again?

Betraying myself

Trying to love someone too broken to receive it

Am I too broken now to receive your love?

I sprinkled my wounds

With fairy dust and sparkles

Pretended to be fierce

Beyond reach

To those who sought to harm me

The same who once claimed to love me

Still…

The arrow got through

My armour disguised as enlightenment

True love doesn’t require an armouring

Does it?

But what do I know of true love…

I only know betrayal

Lies and deceit

Frost bite

Disguised as affection

Abandonment

Disguised as support

Bullying

Disguised as protection

And then you come along

Tending to all my wounds

With such delicate care and devotion

So gentle and reverent

You hold my heart

Tenderly

I push you away

Again and again

Yet you remain steadfast

And dedicated

Courageous and strong

Afraid of losing you

I ran away

Before another wounding

Another devastating loss

That would surely destroy me this time

We were destined

To find our way back together

To traverse this love

This life

Hand in hand

Healing each other

Along the way

I can shed my heavy armour

Finally

You remind me

Of who I am

Underneath all the wounds

Of my strength

My courage

My capacity for love

You know heartbreak and betrayal

Intimately

Yet you love with such stubborn loyalty

Showing me my heart is safe in your hands

I thought I knew what love was

I had every exact detail written in stone

What a fool I was

Loving and embracing

each other’s and our own perfect imperfections

Trusting each other to hold our vulnerability

A life of

Intense soul shifting passion

Deep belly laughs into the wee hours of dawn

Blissful sleep wrapped in each others arms

Sexy adventures

Sharing our hopes and dreams

Our pain and fears

Growing in truth

Falling deeper in love

Every single day

Challenging each other to

Evolve

Transcend

Release stale versions

Of who we became

After so much wounding

I have finally found my home

In you

In us

And I am here to stay.

Follow your Bliss

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“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.”

~Joseph Campbell.

Can you feel bliss knocking at the door of your soul?

You’ll feel it knocking as the sun shines on your face

As the gentle breeze blows across your skin

As you melt into strong arms, hugging you tightly

As you fold into cozy blankets in your soft cloud-like bed on a chilly night

As you sit in front of a roaring fire feeling its warm glow

As you stare deeply into the eyes of your beloved

As you feel your heart open wide to all the bliss in the universe

As you stroke the soft fur of your pet

As you sit quietly in meditation

Watching the gorgeous pink sky as the sun rises

And the golden orange radiance as the sun sets

As you gaze in wonder at the starlit sky

And the rising of the orange harvest full moon

Feeling your beautiful baby squeeze your finger and smile for the first time

The feeling of your baby sleeping peacefully on your chest

Listening to the sound of waves crashing on the shore

The nourishing feeling of warm soup on a cold Winter’s night

That first flush of infatuation

Then falling madly in love

The joy of deep belly laughs

Of dancing wildly

The peacefulness of laying on the earth amongst the trees

The satiated bliss after an orgasm

The cold, crisp, blue skies in Autumn

And the red, gold and orange leaves before they fall to the ground

The newborn lambs in Spring as they hop around the paddock with pure joy

The delicious slumber after a good cry

The glorious relaxation of a head massage

The sweetness on your tongue after the first bite of your favourite dessert

What brings you bliss?

Gratitude is knocking at the door….

Will you let it in?

The Meadow

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“I’ve come as a spring
to lay beside your blossoms
To feel the glory of happiness
and spread your flowers around”
~Rumi

I met you

In an otherworldly meadow

No form

Just sparkling rays

Of pink, gold, blue

Floating

Releasing

Surrendering

To a divine love

A sacred sexual union

I am called to heal

Nourish

Embody your essence

Shower you in pleasure

In bliss

I am you

You are me

We are us

Returning to source

Fear has no place here

Resistance floats away

Let me enter your consciousness

Bound together

By our soul contract

Yet expansively free

To explore the depths

Of our shadow

Our minds

Our hearts

Always returning

To you

To us

Holding each other

With deep reverence

Gratitude

Passion

Releasing the urge

To grasp

Control

Reject

Rationalise

Feel into me

As I feel into you

Aligning our energies

Following our destiny

Evolving

Ascending

Together

Apart

Always connected

Let me kiss your wounds

Your warrior’s scars

Reminding you

Of your strength

Your courage

Your willingness

To descend

With curiosity

Into the darkest corners

Of your being

Returning to the truth

Of who you are

You are my sacred mirror

I see my soul

Reflected in your eyes

The intensity

Of your gaze

Transports me

Into another dimension

Where time stands still

I am consumed by pleasure

Receiving you wholly

Touching

the deepest recesses

of my vessel

I am shaken

To the core

By the force of you

An unexpected connection

Two worlds apart

Blissfully reunited

Once again

To traverse this realm

Let us journey together

Adventures await us

Come with me

To the meadow

The Abyss

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“Sorrow prepares you for joy.
It violently sweeps everything out of your house,
so that new joy can find space to enter.
It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart,
so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place.
It pulls up the rotten roots,
so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow.
Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart,
far better things will take their place.” 
― Rumi

Today I awoke breathless

My heart trying to beat through vice-like grief

Choked by tears

A call to the abyss

A voice asks me why

Why take that next breath

That next step

I know not why

I just know I must

I am lost

Adrift at sea

Rudderless

My heart is broken

But still loves

The loss is immeasurable

Yet there is relief in loss

Once a hostage to bitterness

Betrayal after betrayal

Left me an empty shell

Rage giving way to numbness

Busyness my costume

Hiding my dying spirit

Leaving was no longer a choice

But a necessity

My heart does not choose to beat

It just knows that it must

My body was carried away

And dropped into my deepest shadow

The pull to sink into the abyss was so powerful

So seductive

I could almost taste the relief

But I swam

With a ferocity I scarcely recognised

The heart finds a way to beat

No matter the grief

I must continue to breathe now

To love

As if my life depends on it

Because it does

I will open the dam

And let all the tears fall

I will allow the sea of loss

To flow over me

Through me

Around me

Until I am buoyant

Saturated by all the love that exists

My heart will beat

My lungs will breathe

Whilst I sit with my sadness

Trusting in the process

Of transformation

I am being re-birthed

And it fucking hurts!

Abundance is abound…. ❤️💎❤️

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“When you realise there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” ~Lao Tzu

This morning, as I embark on this 53rd trip around the sun, I am filled with so many beautiful and intense emotions.

I am literally in tears…

for all those who have touched my heart and left my life;

for all those who will always remain in my heart that I love so much;

for all the blessings bestowed on me and finally being able to received them all with open arms;

for all the healing work I’ve done these past few years, in particular, that have now led to this fertile and lush garden of bliss;

for all the hurt and betrayal that has really shown me how incredibly strong and brave I am and has actually opened my heart & up-levelled my compassion, making me softer and kinder;

for stepping into a life free from old narratives and negative storylines which used to have me hustling for my worth with crazy busyness and performing;

for releasing from my life all those incapable of seeing past their shadow and meeting me in the heart space;

for having the courage to embrace my shadow and letting the light touch it gently, illuminating where I still need to send some love and tenderness;

for all the amazing opportunities to love deeper, laugh harder, play and dance with abandon, grab hold of my passion with both hands & never letting go, and to be of divine service to all beings;

and for truly trusting that I am loved, supported and blessed.

I just can’t wait to see what the Universe has in store for me next….

Abundance is abound. Watch this space!

Namaste ❤️💎❤️

Enraptured

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Artwork by Jen Shearer

I dare you not to fall in love with me

Will you take that dare

I will conquer your heart in a single moment

You enrapture me at first touch

Getting lost in the intensity of your grasp

Holding me with such reverence

I am mesmerised

By your hypnotic gaze

I long for you after only a moment’s absence

I crave you like an addict

You see all of me

Raw

Naked

Vulnerable

Heartbroken

Rapturous

Silly

Clumsy

Dancing

Spinning madly

So in love with you

Making me feel safe again

No longer afraid to speak my truth

Take up space

Make some noise

Express my hunger

Expose my shadow

I show you my warrioress

My tenderness

My fear

My weariness

You stand with courage

Consistent

Never flinching

Nor retreating

I don’t scare you

Because your heart is strong,

wide open

Ready to receive my love

The brutal betrayals

Broke my heart wide open

Showing me what love isn’t

The scattered pieces have come together

In a tapestry of divine truth

Trusting you is easy

Your kindness a beacon

I have always loved you

In your arms is like coming home

Your heart my sanctuary

Sexy adventures await us

Fun and belly laughs

Lusty moments

Dreamy quietude

Stepping beyond our comfort zones

Abundant bliss our reward

Living out loud

Strong alone

Indestructible together

Devouring each other under a starry sky

Let me crawl inside you

Forever connected

Spellbound

I am hopelessly captivated by you

The distance no match

For destiny always finds a way

Take my hand, my love

Our future awaits

Surrender

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your soulful eyes

light me up

when you stare hungrily at me

your long fingers

stop my ragged breath

as they trail up my legs

your lips

so soft and full of promise

make me wild

with desire

your strong hands

pulling

pushing

grabbing

holding me down

lifting me up

caressing every part of me

your long wet tongue

teasing me

circling around my secret door

making me crazy with anticipation

tell me your secrets

your fears

your dreams

what moves you?

what lights you up?

you move so slow

achingly slow

purposefully

skilfully

watching my rapture

overwhelmed

with so many feelings

so many delicious thoughts

scrambling my mind

words fail me

such intense longing

waking me up

from a lifetime slumber

passion coursing through my veins

I want to taste your essence

worship at your altar

run my tongue all over your body

licking you

swallowing you

devouring you

greedily

as you watch.

take control of me

live out your fantasies

do what you want

with my body

and my heart.

you look at me

like a hungry predator

what do you crave?

tell me how to feed you

take me gently

my love

rougher now

ravish me

our bodies move to the edge

my wanting is fierce

love me

harder…

deeper…

deeper still

I want to feel you

inside every part of me

merging into one

come with me

bask in my garden

sleep in my shade

let me warm your weary spirit

etching my name on your heart

to remind you

of this moment

never forget me

wrap your arms around me

envelop me

possess me

guard me

pretend I am yours

alone

surrender to me

do not resist

I want you

to hold nothing back

I see through your armour

we have loved before

I am yours

for the taking

consume me

quench your thirst

feast on me

fill yourself completely

I am limitless

I am a game changer

altering you forever

releasing you

from all that came before

right here

right now

is all we have…

and all that matters

Falling in love

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falling in love with life again

the rawness of the wounds healing

endless possibilities

laid out before me

a return to love

remembrance of my strength

beauty

trust

no need to hustle for my worth

nothing more to prove

I see clearly now

standing naked in the moonlight

surrounded by electricity

sensuality

a lust for life

my appetite returned

no more starvation

a feast upon me

I am whole

feel my passion

I am yours

but never owned

possess me

but don’t control

I am water

grasping can’t hold me

swim beside me

bathe deep inside

soak me into your consciousness

I will be forever

on your mind

you can’t let me go

I am a part of you now

Love me harder

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Blinding Painting
By Jonas Kunickas

love me deeper

harder

like never before

journey with me

as we pass through love’s door

there is such mystical beauty

in this union we share

you’ve captured my heart

as I stand before you bare

no hiding in shame

no pretending or fear

I am falling in love

risking exquisite tears

Dear…..

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as I rise

I feel your judgement

quietly resenting my release

free from the shackles

that bound me to a much too small life

wings clipped

by a thousand criticisms,

rejections and betrayals

feather by feather

left crippled and afraid

until one day

with nothing left to lose

all dignity lost

I set myself free

my healing has been long

painful

messy

at times ungrounding

all over the place

up

down

moving between moods

like a toddler

and so what?!

I want to feel

all my fucking feelings

I am not afraid

I am a warrior

built for hurricanes

so spare me your judgement

disguised as concern

of how I’m choosing to heal

don’t you worry about me

check your own damn self

I am free

to laugh

to dance

to make love

to relish every single moment

the deliciously sexy ones

the joyful ones

and even the gloriously,

excruciatingly

painful ones

I am rising like the Phoenix

I will not sit down,

shut up

and behave

like a good girl “should”

I will roam free

roaring as loudly as I want

making all the mistakes

that my newfound freedom allows

risking a broken heart

if that’s what it takes to be fully alive

open hearted

vulnerable

fierce

I will not hide behind what is comfortable

safe

allowed

throwing caution to the wind

logic out the window

I will move with my soul’s longing

I will follow my passion

find my bliss

blaze the trail

take the heat

your need to push me down

make me small

diminish my light

is your own fear

holding you back

my awakening scares you

reminds you of what you’ve lost

hiding behind your rules

your safety net a prison

of your own making

put it down and join me

on this exhilarating rollercoaster

we can never know how strong we are

until we flex our muscles

grab hold of our power

our sovereignty

as free wild women

a road less travelled

but the only path to liberation

join me there