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The Meadow

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“I’ve come as a spring
to lay beside your blossoms
To feel the glory of happiness
and spread your flowers around”
~Rumi

I met you

In an otherworldly meadow

No form

Just sparkling rays

Of pink, gold, blue

Floating

Releasing

Surrendering

To a divine love

A sacred sexual union

I am called to heal

Nourish

Embody your essence

Shower you in pleasure

In bliss

I am you

You are me

We are us

Returning to source

Fear has no place here

Resistance floats away

Let me enter your consciousness

Bound together

By our soul contract

Yet expansively free

To explore the depths

Of our shadow

Our minds

Our hearts

Always returning

To you

To us

Holding each other

With deep reverence

Gratitude

Passion

Releasing the urge

To grasp

Control

Reject

Rationalise

Feel into me

As I feel into you

Aligning our energies

Following our destiny

Evolving

Ascending

Together

Apart

Always connected

Let me kiss your wounds

Your warrior’s scars

Reminding you

Of your strength

Your courage

Your willingness

To descend

With curiosity

Into the darkest corners

Of your being

Returning to the truth

Of who you are

You are my sacred mirror

I see my soul

Reflected in your eyes

The intensity

Of your gaze

Transports me

Into another dimension

Where time stands still

I am consumed by pleasure

Receiving you wholly

Touching

the deepest recesses

of my vessel

I am shaken

To the core

By the force of you

An unexpected connection

Two worlds apart

Blissfully reunited

Once again

To traverse this realm

Let us journey together

Adventures await us

Come with me

To the meadow

Shadow

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All alone with my shadow
For far too long
I have been swallowed up
Only my shadow remains
Empty shoes where I used to stand
A formless fraud
Pretending myself into being
Laughing, crying, raging
Anything to feel alive
So so tired now
Yet unable to find solace in sleep
Peace evades me
I keep getting back up
After each knock down
I can’t seem to help it
My longing for love is greater than my sorrow
The seductive void calls to me
Trust, trust, trust…
My mantra
Will the light return?
Or have I finally been extinguished?
Sweet surrender is where I’ll find my bliss.

The Abyss

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“Sorrow prepares you for joy.
It violently sweeps everything out of your house,
so that new joy can find space to enter.
It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart,
so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place.
It pulls up the rotten roots,
so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow.
Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart,
far better things will take their place.” 
― Rumi

Today I awoke breathless

My heart trying to beat through vice-like grief

Choked by tears

A call to the abyss

A voice asks me why

Why take that next breath

That next step

I know not why

I just know I must

I am lost

Adrift at sea

Rudderless

My heart is broken

But still loves

The loss is immeasurable

Yet there is relief in loss

Once a hostage to bitterness

Betrayal after betrayal

Left me an empty shell

Rage giving way to numbness

Busyness my costume

Hiding my dying spirit

Leaving was no longer a choice

But a necessity

My heart does not choose to beat

It just knows that it must

My body was carried away

And dropped into my deepest shadow

The pull to sink into the abyss was so powerful

So seductive

I could almost taste the relief

But I swam

With a ferocity I scarcely recognised

The heart finds a way to beat

No matter the grief

I must continue to breathe now

To love

As if my life depends on it

Because it does

I will open the dam

And let all the tears fall

I will allow the sea of loss

To flow over me

Through me

Around me

Until I am buoyant

Saturated by all the love that exists

My heart will beat

My lungs will breathe

Whilst I sit with my sadness

Trusting in the process

Of transformation

I am being re-birthed

And it fucking hurts!