For as far back as I can remember, I’ve been told that I am wise beyond my years, an old soul. I vividly remember being able to see auras as clear as day….an ability I buried somewhere along the way.
All my life I’ve been offering advice (oftentimes unsolicited), which comes from an inner knowing I’ve never fully understood. I possess a mystical ability to see past the behaviour of others, seemingly “good” or “bad,” and intuitively sense what drives people to do what they do. I’ve been told hundreds of times that I should be a psychotherapist, however, I’ve never been interested in putting people in neat little categories (i.e. diagnose a “disorder/syndrome”), and dispense advice according to the conventional wisdom of the day. Every soul is unique and there is no “one-size-fits-all” prescription for living a life of purpose and joy.
All this “seeing” and “knowing” made for a very difficult childhood. I was rebellious, insecure and fiercely disliked. The information coming into my developing brain was overwhelming and unmanageable. I was agitated, uncomfortable in my own skin and desperate for distraction, which came in the form of excessive daydreaming. Today I’d likely be diagnosed with ADHD and drugged.
Eventually I found my crowd…. a band of outcasts, misfits and burgeoning alcoholics and drug addicts. I spent the next 10 years or so lost in a fog of blessed intoxication. I was finally relieved of information-overload. I had managed to shut down the mystic mechanism and feel…..nothing. I experienced several near-overdoses before I decided that I wasn’t ready to die. I had a purpose and a mission I was determined to discover.
Over 2 decades later, here we are. I still have no idea what it is, exactly, that I’m meant to do with my mystic gifts. I know that my passion and medium is writing, so I’ve decided to face my enormous fear and just dive right in, headfirst, which is my nature. It’s what I’ve always done and it has always worked out perfectly, whether or not I thought so at the time.
My motivation with this blog is to (hopefully) be of benefit to others. I wish to share my journey…. my experiences, joy & heartbreak, insights, hard-earned wisdom and what inspires me to let go of shame and open my heart to my most authentic self. My hope is that I can encourage others to release their limiting “labels” (both self-imposed and those imposed on them by family and social communities) and recognise, with perfect clarity, their innate perfection and magnificence. This is my path to love and peace.
Om mani padme hum